A Change In Me.

For the past few years, my clothes were all the same shade. Black. Nag-umpisa yun nung 2nd year college ako, for some reason natuwa akong magsuot ng black shirts. Si Mama laging naiinis pag bumibili ako ng damit kasi laging itim. 

"Why do you keep on wearing black shirts?! Buti naman sana kung maputi ka."

or

"Change your shirt or you're not coming with us."

Yan ang madalas na linya sa akin ni Mama. Tapos dumating yung depression/emo phase ng buhay ko, dumami tuloy mga black shirts ko. One day, nagayos ako ng mga damit, nakita na as in SOBRANG dami ng black shirts ko. Pati ako nagulat.

Thats a picture of most of my shirts an it was taken July, 2009. Since nasa Baguio pa ako nun, may mga jacket, trench coat at kung ano ano pang shit pa ako. Syempre ngayon, wala na yang mga yan, di ko na ginagamit. Goodluck sa akin pag nag-trench coat ako dito sa Manila diba? 

Ngayon, eto na ang itsura ng mga damit sa cabinet ko.

So colorful diba?

It started October last year. One day I decided to go shopping and may nakita ako na mga shirts sa Department Store ng SM. Natuwa ako sa designs but they didn't have anything in black so I decided to try on some of the shirts kahit hindi black. Naaliw ako kasi bumagay naman sa akin. Nagkasya pa. Oh diba?!

So I bought a couple of shirts. Ayun, mula nun tuloy tuloy naman na. Si Mama natuwa na sobrang colorful ng mga suot ko ginanahan na i-shopping ako ng mas madaming damit kasi baka daw bumalik ako sa pagsusuot ng black.

Lyve started calling me United Colors of Benetton and it took me a few days to realize what she meant. Kung di pa nya tinuro yung green shirt na suot ko noon, hindi ko pa marerealize kung ano ibig sabihin nun. Ngayon eh I don't buy black shirts anymore, and the thing is I buy a lot of striped shirts for some reason.

Sabi naman ng baby ko I look good daw in red. Buti nalang madami akong red shirts hehehe. And sometimes tinatanog ko siya kung ok suot ko. Syempre gusto ko naman presentable ako.

It's funny how in a span of a few months, I changed the style I've had for almost 4 years. Ayus diba? You all see the pics I upload so you judge if I look better in black or in color. I'm vain that way ^_^.

Aba may bago...

... sa office...

Sunday ata nang dumating tong mga upuan na to sa office. Matagal ko nang natanong ang HR kung magkakaroon ba ng mga upuan sa smoking area ng office. Meron daw. August daw. Aba meron nga. August pa naman. End of the month nga lang. Hehe.

Anyway, natuwa naman kaming mga nagyoyosi na may mga upuan na sa smoking area at may table pa. At first glance, they look like they are made out of ratan but they are actually made out of plastic. Maganda naman, and they're really comfy with or without those foam thingy's. Marunong pumili ang mga taga purchasing ah.

Sa wakas, hindi ko na kelangan umupo sa isang gilid o sa sahig pag nagyoyosi ako. Sa wakas hindi ko na kelangan umupo sa may mga mga rails ng smoking area na feeling ko eh mahanginan lang eh makakalas na at mahuhulog kasama ang taong nakasandal dun. 11 floors din ang huhulugan nun no.

Comment lang ha, wag sanang masamain. Sana dinagdagan pa mga upuan na ganito kasi tig dalawa lang bawat smoking area eh in fairness medyo malawak naman ang smoking area at ang madalas gumamit lang naman nun eh mga sunog baga gaya ko. Or lagyan ng isang malaking bench para space saver din diba? Comment ko lang po yun bilang isang mabuting empleyado na ang tanging nais eh ang ikakasaya ng ibang mga empleyado gaya ko.

Ngayon ang kulang nalang eh mini-bar at DJ para party na!

But seriously, I like I like I like these chairs.

Ang earphones...bow.

Naglalakad ako papunta sa workstation ko nang makita ko ang officemate kong si JD. May napansin ako, may naka-plug na kung anong shit sa tenga nya. I instantly recognized it. It's the signatured Lady Gaga earphones. Monster Beats ata ang tawag dyan, I dont remember the exact name.

Those things cost 7500-8500 retail. I spend a lot on crazy shit but I dont think I'm crazy enough yet to spend that much on a pair of earphones. I like how they look like and JD said they're really comfy and the sound quality is awesome.

I like the black one or silver. JD has the red one, it's nice but its too...uhhm...shiny... hehe. Kaya pag nakikita ko si JD, parang gusto ko syang paamuyin ng amonia tapos pagkagising nya wala na earphones nya at nakapag exit interview na ako. I kid I kid. I'll talk about JD some other time kasi susundan ko yung post ko nun about our department and kasali sya sa post kong yun. Basta eto, she is very very photogenic. Teka bat parang nawala na ako sa topic. Basta I like those earphones.

Of smokes and mirrors

Friday night pagdating ko sa bahay, nakabukas yung pintuan at mga ilaw ng bahay. Shet nanakawan na ata ako ang inisip ko. Tapos biglang may narinig akong boses sa loob. Ayun dumating na pala si Mama dito sa Manila.

She came to Manila to have more things fixed around the house and to have the house painted because she doesn't like the color. Something I agree with. The color of the house is waaay too depressing. Mag-isa na nga lang ako sa bahay tapos ganun pa kulay nya.

Well anyway, nag-luto ulit si Mama ng breakfast. Pero hindi yun ang kwento.

Naglaba at nag-plantsa si Mama. Ilang beses ko nang sinabi sa kanya na kumuha nalang sya ng gagawa nun. Pwede naman yung katulong ng tita ko, wala naman masyadong ginagawa ata yun eh. Pero mapilit tong si Mama.

"I ironed for 4 hours", sabi ni Mama.

"You ironed 20 of my shirts for 4 hours?!", tanong ko habang umiinom ng coke.

"Yeah. But I ironed them really nice.", sabi ni Mama.

"Ok", sabi ko ng tumatawa.

"Your denim pants though I didn't iron. That is where I draw the line"

Natawa nalang ako at natuwa. The last time that my mother ironed that many clothes was when I was in elementary which way more than 10 years ago. Tagal na no? Pero masaya ako na my mom does these things for me pag andito sya kasi alam ko naman na hindi na siya sanay sa mga ganun.

Ayun, bumili si mama ng malaking salamin para sa sala namin since ang salamin lang sa bahay eh yung nasa kwarto ko at yung nasa cr. The house looks soooo much better now. Once the paint-job is done and once the new couches arrive, I'll immediately post pictures here.

And as usual, pinagsasabihan parin ako ni mama dahil sa paninigarilyo ko. As usual, hindi pain ako nakikinig. hehe.

But I'm happy that my mom and I are so much closer now. A few nights, we talked about something. I won't discuss it yet. That itself deserves its own post in time. But for now, I just wanna say that I love my momma.

Ikaw kasi...

You make me smile for no reason para tuloy akong umaamoy ng nasusunog na gulong.

You make my heart beat so fast, feeling ko nahuli akong nandadaya sa exam.

You make me miss you, para akong tanga na nakatingin sa phone ko.

You make fun of how I talk in tagalog, lalo tuloy akong nabubulol.

You make me sing dahil masaya ako, iniisip tuloy ng mga katabi ko adik ako.

You keep me up all night on the phone, mukha tuloy akong zombie sa office.

You make me think of you all the time, nakakalimutan ko tuloy na may ginagawa pala ako.

You make my head spin, para akong uminom ng 3 galon ng generoso.

You make it hard for me to breathe, para akong nagyosi ng isang ream.

You make me wanna squeeze your cheeks, nakakagigil ka kasi.

You make me forget about my past, ang inosente tuloy ng pakiramdam ko.

You make me wanna call you during my lunch break, nao-over break tuloy ako.

You make me laugh at your jokes kahit minsan corny jokes mo.

You make me feel good about my jokes kahit na mas corny ang jokes ko.

You make me all mushy and cheesy, naninibago tuloy ako.

You accept me for who I am flaws and all, sigurado ka ba talaga?

You make me believe in happy endings, ibang klase ka.

You make me love you more everyday because of the things you do, ibang klase ka talaga!

You are the one I choose.

You are the one I love.

You're the one I've been waiting for.

I'll love you.

I'll protect you.

I'll never hurt you.

I'll be everything to you

I'll never give you a reason not to trust me.

Just love me back and never hurt me...

...and I'll never let you go

Tokyo Tokyo

Since Friday kagabi at walang pasok si Bongga pag weekends though ako meron, nagkita kami sa Trinoma after work. Ganito kasi, I get off work at 4 and she gets off at 6. Since two hours ang gap, nagpunta na ako ng trinoma at gumala. Kakwentuhan ko sa phone babe ko at katxt ko sa isa kong phone bestfriend ko.

Dumaan din ako ng Smart para magbayad ng internet bill ko. I hate paying bills. Sobrang hassle. Hate it. Hate it. Hate it.

Ayun, dumating na si Bongga. The reason we went there was because the day before that, I found this shop in Trinoma named Seizen which sells a lot of Japanese shit. Si Bongga agad ang pumasok sa isip ko. Ayun, 24 hours later nandun na kami hehe.

I was planning to buy those disposable glow sticks pero I was thinking that I'll just buy them when I need them. Baka kasi pag bumili ako eh gamitin ko lahat sa sobrang aliw ko.

After ng pagtambay namin sa Seizen, lumabas kami at nagyosi at nag-isip kung saan kakain. We eventually ended up in Tokyo Tokyo.

For the first time, sinuot ko ang aking Integrim Shirt. Cute naman yung shirt, but I dont like the fabric that much. It's too rough.

Ang aking order which is my favorite beef bowl in Tokyo Tokyo.

At si Bongga at ang kanyang food. Tonkatsu Bento something. I honestly don't remember what she was doing when I took this picture pero mukha namang ang saya saya nya diba?

"Ayus din ah, we started this week with Dinner and we ended it with Dinner too", ang biglang nasabi ni Bongga.

Oo nga ano. Naalala ko bigla, Monday pala nag Pancake House nito. Moving on, as usual walang katapusang kwentuhan nanaman kami ni Bongga.

Next stop Bongga, Geenbelt so we can buy those espadrilles you like. Parang gusto ko narin bumili, inimpluwensyahan nyo ako ni Bookie. Hahaha

Nang matigil na ang mga tanong...

Ilang araw magmula nang pumutok ang balita sa Facebook na ako ay nagpalit ng relationship status from 'single' to 'in a relationship'. Marami ang nagtanong, marami ang nagulat, nagtxt, nag-PM, nag-IM, nagreact, at kung ano ano pang shit.

I am here to set the story straight. Yes, I am in a relationship. Yes, I am happily taken. Yes, I could not ask for anything more.

I love my baby and I would like everyone to respect that. Sa mga natuwa para sa akin, thank you so very very much. Sa mga nagtanong, nagulat, at hindi kinaya ang balitang ito, all I can say is...makapag-react kayo ha! Wala ba akong karapatang magmahal?!

Masaya ako dahil nakahanap ako ng taong mahal ko ng sobra at mahal na mahal ako at hopefully siya na ang makakapagpatino sa akin. Alam nyo naman, medyo dakilang pasaway ang inyong lingkod. Pero ayun na nga. Totoo ang balita.

Babe if you're reading this, you know that I love you and that I will do everything for you. May ganun? But kidding aside, I'm happy that my close friends and my mom are happy for me. Yun lang naman ang hinihiling ko eh.

Siguro iniisip ninyo kung bakit ko to sinulat kung nagpalit naman na ako ng relationship status. Well, gusto ko lang sagutin ang tanong ng iba na hindi ata naniniwala. Mga lintek kayo, kaibigan ko pa mandin kayong tinuring tapos hindi kayo naniniwala. Hahaha.

Basta masaya ako, sana masaya din kayo, para lahat tayo eh happy. Diba?

Oh diba? Parang press conference lang. Hahaha

Ano daw?!

Sa 7/11.

Dali-dali akong pumasok ng 7/11 para bumili ng maiinom, makakain, at yosi.

Sobrang nagmamadali ako dahil male-late na ako sa trabaho.

Kinuha ko lahat ng kelangan kong bilhin sabay lagay sa counter para magbayad.

"Kuya isa rin pong pack ng marlboro black", sabi ko.

Nilapag ni kuya ang yosi sa harap ko,

"Ilang taon na po kayo?", ang napaka inosenteng tanong nya.

"Uhhhh 22?!", ang sagot ko.

"May ID po ba kayo?"

"Kuya seryoso ka ba?", sagot ko sabay tingin sa oras dahil 2 minutes nalang late na ako.

"Opo", sagot ni kuya na hindi ko ba alam kung seryoso o pinagtritripan lang ako.

"Kuya, mukha ba akong menor de edad?!", tanong ko may halong inis na sa boses ko.

"Opo. Dyan po kayo sa taas nagtratrabaho?"

"Hindi kuya, sa Trinoma ako nagtratrabaho. Oo naman. Sa 11th floor ako."

Nahalata ata ni kuya na medyo naiinis na ako at inaalala ko ang oras. Tinigilan narin ang paghahanap ng ID sa akin.

Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako o maiinsulto. Either bumabata ako tignan or may sakit na sa mata si kuya.

Pero napasaya ni kuyang cashier ang araw ko. ID daw oh. Adik si kuya. Adik!

Rest day ko

It was my rest day yesterday and since I did all the chores around the house the day before, gumala nanaman ako. I was planning to go to Cubao Expo but I changed my mind when it started raining really hard. Next week nalang ako pupunta dun.

So pumunta muna ako ng trinoma. Look at the shirt I bought.

I was having second thoughts of buyig it pero sabi naman ng baby ko bagay daw sa akin. Ayun binili ko na. i honestly think I have too many stripped shirts. One of these days nga bibilangin ko kung ilan ang shirts ko na ganyan nang magkaalaman na.

I find it weird na ganyan ang style ng mga shirts na binibili ko eh eto ang turo sa akin ng bestfriend ko many years ago:

"Bes, unless 29 ang bewang mo at may washboard abs ka, never wear horizontally stripped shirts kasi tataba ka lalo tignan. Ano ka ba?!"

My bestfriend ladies and gentlemen.

Pagtapos kong mamili ng kung ano anong shit, tumambay muna ako sa Starbucks para magyosi at makipagkwentuhan.

The sandwich was good but a bit dry, the drink was tooo sweet, the cigarettes were not enough.

It was a fun afternoon though.

Pancake House!

Monday Night.

This was the only day na 9AM-6PM ang shift ko so sabay kami ng out ni Bongga. After ng shift ko, hinintay ko si Bongga ng bonggang bongga dahil syempre, trainer na siya ngayon so may mga meeting meeting shit pa pagkatapos. Kaya ayun, nagyosi muna at nakipagkwentuhan sa phone sa yosi area habang hinihintay ko si Bongga.

Nang maubusan na ako ng yosi, bumaba ako para bumili sa 7/11. Sakto, tumawag si Bongga hinahanap ako. Hinintay ko sya sa baba. Pagdating nya, nagkwentuhan pa kami. Eh since wala pa kami sa mood na umuwi, pumunta kami sa Pancake House na nasa Centris Walk. Dinner!

Ang inorder namin na country breakfast something with orange juice. It looked good dun sa menu, pero nung sinerve yung food, I cringed. 

Bongga and the Sausage and her cute but expensive watch.

Me and my new haircut na sabi ni Bongga maganda daw compared sa last. To be fair, when it comes to pancakes I really like their pancakes here. Yung juice, medyo maasim. Yung sausage, hindi man lang umabot ng lalamunan ko. 

Ang dami naming pinagkwentuhan, pinagusapan, nalaman. At dahil bumuhos ng malakas yung ulan, mga 9:30 or 10 na kami nakaalis ng Pancake House. It's funny how much you could learn in a few hours, how much you could say, how much you could share. 

Bongga I know at one point you'll be reading this because I know you still read my blog but not as often as before. All I can say is, thank you. Alam mo na kung bakit. 

And my heart melts...

Saw this on my mom's Facebook page.

Natuwa lang ako.

She still reads my blog apparently.

Love you momma.

Dinner daw?

Sa yosi area ng office namin.

Dahil avail time nanaman, nagbreak ako at pumunta sa yosi are para magyosi at tawagan si *ehem*. Pero pagdating ko dun, naabutan ko si Madam at Don na naguusap.

"Hindi nga date yun", pilit na sinasabi ni Don.

Si Madam tumatawa lang.

Mukhang masayang usapan to kaya naki join ako since kilala ko naman kung sino pinaguusapan nila.

"Dinner lang yun hindi date. Pano mo ba nalaman?", tanong ni Don kay Madam.

"Sinabi niya mismo sa akin", ang sagot ni Madam.

"Dinner nga lang yun", pilit ni Don with conviction in his voice.

"Sino nagbayad?", tanong ko.

"Oo nga. Ikaw ba? Sya ba? o KKB?", tanong ni Madam.

"Eh syempre alangan naman yung babae ang magbayad", depensa ni Don.

"Ahhhhh", sabi ko, nakangiti ng nakakaloko.

"Sabi ko sa susunod sya naman magbabayad", dagdag ni Don.

"So may susunod pa talaga?", tanong ko, pilit kong pinipigil ang pagtawa.

Tumawa ng malakas si Madam. Si Don, dumedepensa nanaman pero hindi makasagot dahil tawa kami ng tawa ni Madam.

"Mamaya makita ko to sa blog ah!", parinig ni Don.

"Hindi ah!", sagot ko naman.

Ayun eh, di ko napigilan. Pero hayaan nyo kids, alam naman ni Don na sinulat ko to. Sya pa nga pumili ng title eh. Hahaha.

Huwatt???

Kids I just got good news! Hindi ko muna sasabihin kung ano so that I won't jinx it but y'all wish me luck owkei? owkei. Thank you.

Yun lang. Nagshare lang ako.

For all the special people in my life!

...need I say more? 

Good Night kids... got work in the morning.

Rewind and Fastforward...

The other day I received a text from my mom asking me how to open the gate. Apparently she was in town. Sa loob loob ko, di manlang magtext at sabihing,

"Oi I'm going there" or "Im here in Manila".

Nagulat ako. Pero mas nagulat ako nung sinabi nya na Thursday night pa pala siya andito. Natulog siya sa bahay ng isa sa mga friends nya. Ayun tuloy, nung Friday afternoon after ng Italiannis lunch namin I went to SM North to meet up with my mom.

Naghanapan kami sa department store kasi pinapunta nya ako sa sofa section tapos pagdating ko dun, nasa tables section naman daw sya. Scavenger hunt ba 'to?

Nung finally nakita ko si mama, ayun nakatayo malapit sa mga dining tables, naghahanap ng bibilhin para sa bahay. Bumili sya ng side table kasi ayaw daw nya yung side table nya na binili nya 3 weeks ago na wala pang 24 hours na nagamit nya. After nun pumunta kami ng grocery store para bumili ng supplies at food para sa bahay. Ayan, di ako gagastos para sa food hanggang sa next na sweldo ko hehehe.

Pag-uwi namin sa bahay naglinis kami ng konti tapos nagpahinga na.

Yesterday, ginising ako ni mama para kumain kasi 7am shift ko nun. Aba, nagluto si mama. Natuwa ako kasi my mom hasn't cooked breakfast for me in years. German franks and sunny-side up eggs ang niluto nya. They're super easy to cook but the point of the matter is, nagluto si mama. Ok na sa akin yun.

Last night she went back home so I was a little sad kasi kahit na minsan nakukulitan ako at naiirita sa mama ko eh love ko naman sya. Mama's boy ako eh. Sabi ni mama naglaba daw sya ng konti at narealize nya na ilang taon na daw pala siyang hindi naglalaba. Hahaha.

Natutuwa lang ako kasi I had this flashback to 1998 when we first moved to Manila. It was a one bedroom apartment and it was very small. Pang isang tao lang talaga. She'd cook and clean and do the laundry by herself and since I was 9 years old, wala akong ginagawa kundi manood ng TV. She had bad taste in clothes then, or maybe yun ung uso nung time na yun, I don't remember. I was round and learning how to speak in filipino properly.

Fastforward 12 years later. We're living a much better life, a house in the province, a house in the city in the same village where I grew up. I have a job, my mom has maids to do everything for her. Iba na buhay namin ngayon, but yesterday, I went back to 1998. To a time nung bago kaming dalawa ni mama sa manila. To a time nung kaming dalawa lang. It felt good. It felt amazing. I felt like a child again in more ways than one.

At dahil dyan, good mood ako sa office. Tanungin nyo pa officemates ko.

Italiannis

Yesterday after shift, Tess, Sexyanne and I went to Italiannis para mag merienda. Bagong sweldo eh. Indulge naman ng konti plus may discount kasi kami sa Italiannis na nasa Centris Walk as part of our "benefits" at work.

At dahil may katagalan ang pagseserve nila ng food, nagpicture picture muna ako.

At dahil autistic ako, ayan nasa childrens park ako ng Centris Walk.

Me, Sexyanne, and Tess.

After 10 years, dumating narin ang food namin. Yung pasta medyo hindi masyadong naluto kasi matigas pa ng konti. Pero masarap yung sauce na ginamit nila. Yung pizza naman ok din, pero thin crust and its the type na hindi na masarap pag lumamig. So kelangan kainin mo habang mainit pa sya, sukdulang mapaso dila mo. Although nagustuhan ko yung chili oil ng italiannis. Maanghang daw sabi nung dalawa, di naman ako tinablan.

The pasta something with hipon something.

Pizza ala dahon.

Sa susunod nga bitbitin ko tong mga to sa Mr. Jones sa Greenbelt, kasi mas sulit food dun at feeling ko mas mura hehehe.

Life in Slow-mo...

Tempus II from Philip Heron on Vimeo.

...wala lang kids. Naaliw lang ako. Nakakarelax hehe. Some things are waaay better in slow motion. Full screen nyo, mas maganda.

Planet Zips 1st Bacolod Poi Workshop

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When the curtains rise

To those of you na nakakakilala sa akin, alam ninyo na performer ako. Ever since moving to manila, I've missed performing on stage. Singing, dancing, acting, the works. Hirap naman kasi dito eh, wala akong alam kung saan pwede.

The rush I feel from having people watch me is unbelievable. I miss every moment of it. Singing by myself or singing with a group.

I remember way back home, of all the singing partners I've had, there was one that stood out. One I will always remember, lets call her Jizelle. We were both members of UB Voices and we became close friends kaya kami magkapartner pag kumakanta. She's a soprano and the only one I have a hard time catching up with because even if I'm a Tenor, her vocal range is soooo high. She bloody sings like Lea Salonga. Hindi ako nageexagerate. Ganun sya kagaling.

We'd always sing 'Last Night of the World' from Miss Saigon. She can sing The Prayer without any effort. Shet, nanliliit ako pag kumakanta tong babaeng to. I actually have a video of her singing but I don't know kung okay lang sa kanya na i-post ko dito. Apparenlty, akoang gusto nyang singing partner because ako yung nakakaalam nung mga kantang alam nya, specially Broadway and Westend Tunes.

Anyway, to my singing partner, Jizelle, this song is for you and I hope one day we can sing it together. Because God knows how much I miss the stage. And I know you miss it too.

I.Am.Adam.

I'm vain because I change my shirt twice before leaving the house.
I gain weight and lose weight fast which kinda bugs me.
I'm an ass because I don't let you push me around.
I'm a liar because I won't tell you everything.
I'm stupid because sometimes I'm wrong.
I'm ugly because my face isn't perfect.
I'm annoying because I'm not chill enough.
I'm a loser because I'm not friends with your group.
I use people because I do what's best for me.
I'm fake because most of the time I'm happy.
I'm weird because I'm not like you.

I'm high-maintenance because I have good taste.

I'm controlling because I get mad sometimes.
I'm clingy because I like to be around people.
I'm greedy because I like to be satisfied.
I'm naive because I'm younger than you.

I'm odd because I don't wanna be normal.

I'm immature because I still watch Power Rangers.
I'm conceited because I'm proud of who I am.
I'm rude because my manners aren't perfect.

I'm insensitive because I'm as candid as they come.
I'm unappreciative because I don't praise you.
Don't try to tell me who I am because I already know.

*Inspired from something I read on Anne Maries' FB page.

Happy 4 months guys!

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April 19.

This was our first day at work. The first day we all caught a glimpse of each other. We started out as 7, but we boiled down to 6. And up to this day, the 6 of us are still are the office. Though there are times na may muntik nang umalis sa amin, we managed to suck it up, get out of bed, haul our asses to work and last this long.

August 19.

The 6 of us have managed to stay friends even though some of us are in different departments now. Our group has been doing great because we all learned from the best and our efforts haven't gone unnoticed by the management. Thank you sa aming mga senior, sup, and managers.

Lets start with me, the humble blogger. Hep hep walang kokontra! Kilala nyo naman na ako so no introductions necessary.

Si Libby, ang dating pinakatahimik sa amin na ngayon ay pumapasok nang naka sleveless at laging mukhang nadiligan...este fresh.

Si Del, ang aming teammate na galing ng Dubai or Saudi or somewhere na madaming buhangin.

Si Rowie, ang ngayon ay Senior na at siguro pinaka-mature sa aming lahat.

Si Jay, ang dog lover namin. Grabe mas mahal pa nya mga aso nya kesa sa sarili nya. Jay! yung asong bibilhin ko sayo ah!

Si Rax, ang astigin sa amin pero pag nakahawak na ng bote ng alak eh nagiging hopeless romantic.

Ayan ang batch namin, halo-halong ugali, halo-halong personalidad pero nakakasabay sa trip ng bawat isa.

Congratulations to all of us guys, sandali nalang at regular na tayo at tataas na mga sweldo natin! Syempre dapat si Rowie ang manlibre kasi sya ang may pinakamataas na sweldo sa ating anim. Rowie wag ka nang kumontra, you still owe us lunch dahil sa promotion mo.

Again, congrats sa ating lahat. Sana tumagal pa tayo sa company.

To another 10K!

I just checked my site counter and Adsense counter and apparently I've had more than 10,000 site hits. Seems just like yesterday I blogged about my 5K mark. Now I can close down my blog. Hahaha. Joke.

Anyway, thank you to all of my readers for reading my rants about shit and what-not. And to my regular readers, thank you for your continuous support.

To my blogger friends, thank you for the inspiration to make my blog better than it was when I started.

To my officemates, thank you for reading my blog during avail time. Thank you din sa mga nag-bookmark ng blog ko. Nagulat ako kasi meron pala talaga. Basta kung may gusto kayong i-blog ko, kung may hinanakit kayo or gusto nyo lang magkwento, alam nyo kung saan ang station ko.

To my relatives who read my blog, wag nyo na akong i-blackmail pag may inaaway ako dito kasi binabasa din ni mama blog ko. Nyahahaha.

To my haters, sabi nang sa disneyland.com kayo pumunta eh or sa ibang blog kayo mambwisit.

To those na nagsabi na i-blog ko sila, feeling nyo ah. Hahaha. Darating din tayo dyan, dapat kasi exciting ang kwento or controversial para masaya naman basahin diba? diba? diba?

To those I've loved before...hello...

To those I love now...hello din...

To everyone else, ikalat ninyo blog link ko para dumami pa readers ko at lalo akong ganahang magsulat.

To another 10K kids.

-Adam

Oh Dee Lawd In Haven!

I was going about my business at the office when my phone beeped and I saw that it was a message from Globe. Since I rarely read the messages from Globe unless it's my phone bill, I just opened the message so I could delete it.

It was a long message but I saw a word that caught my attention.

My heart stopped for a second.

Then it started beating fast.

I could not believe what I was reading.

As in feeling ko hihimatayin ako. I know I'm waaaay too excited in such an unhealthy way but can you blame me?!

The long wait is finally over. Darating na sa third world ang iPhone 4!!!

So ayun, nagbukas ako ng bagong browser, I typed in the website and lo and behold.

Totoo nga!!!

Ayun sa sobrang saya ko, nakangiti ako na para akong humithit ng nasusunog na gulong habang umiinom ng tubig mula sa pinakuluang marijuana. Nakita ako ni DT at nagtanong,

"Why are you so happy?"

I gave him my phone and let him read the message. Napangiti bigla si loko. He knows about my gadget conquests and how long I've been waiting for this phone.

"It doesn't even have a date yet!", saaaabi ba naman.

Buzzkill talaga to.

"I don't care, it's coming soon. It's better than not coming at all!".

Tumawa sya bigla ng malakas. I'm in ecstasy right now. I'm still in shock that the iPhone 4 will be here soon.

For more information and if you wanna register, click here.

Long live iPhone users.

iPhone haters can kiss my A.

The Journey

I could stay in this forever
Enfold you nightly in my arms
Sing you lullaby’s whenever
I’ll give to you all that I can
You will never have to worry ‘bout the future
I will make sure everyday that I provide
I will hold you through the night
Until the sky turns light
The journey now begins, with you and I
The love we created has exceeded
Any measurements I’ve ever known
Brought joy to me, when it was needed
It’s nice to know I’m not alone
I will make sure you are reminded that I love you
I will walk miles just to hold you by my side
I’ll protect you while you sleep
Make every dream complete
I’ll treat everyday with you like it’s the beginning
I will be your strength in times when you are weak
I will never be to far away from you
There is nothing I won’t do
I will hold you through the storms
Anything to keep you warm
The journey now begins, with you and I
You and I

- by Scott Alan

Natuwa lang ako dito, I thought I should post it so others could appreciate it. At kung binabasa mo to ngayon, go figure.

Goodnight kids!

At dahil late ako kanina...

...feeling ko may award nanaman ako mula sa aking Supervisor or Senior pag-dating ko sa office bukas. Makapaghanap na nga ng scrapbook para ma-compile ko. Para presentable diba?

Burlesque!

It's set to be released on November 24, 2010. I'm excited...



...are you?

Ano yun?

Dahil sa sobrang avail time, nakatambay ako sa station ng aking close friend na si Sexyanne. Si Sexyanne ay isa sa mga Senior namin so busi-busihan sya lagi. Ayun, pag nakikita nya akong lumalapit, alam na nya agad na wala nanaman akong ginagawa at makikipagkwentuhan ako. Either that or I just need to go smoke in which I would need her approval.

Kinuha ko yung upuan na nasa tabi ng station nya sabay umupo ako, ang una kong pagbati, "Sexyanne, ano gawa mo?"

"As usual", sagot naman nya.

So ayun, habang nagkwekwentuhan kami tungkol sa mga kalokohan namin sa buhay, ini-isa isa nya e-mails nya, tinitignan kung may kailangan syang gawin or nakalimutan gawin. She was going through them when she opened one that got our attention but before I could read everything, she moved to the next mail by accident.

"Ano yun?!", tanong ni Sexyanne.

"Malay ko. Senior ba ako? Balik mo dun bilis!", sagot ko.

"Eto na. Eto na wait lang".

We both gasped at what we saw. Sabay tawa.

Ano kaya yung nakita namin? Hulaan nyo nga. Hahaha.

Walking in the rain...

Since I was in a hurry this morning because I thought I was gonna be late for work, I completely forgot to bring my umbrella which is weird since I always bring it, though I rarely use it.

Fast forward to a few hours ago just after I got out of the gym. I went home immediately because it was drizzling. When I got to our subdivision, I went to the store I always go to so I could buy cigarettes and a bottle of gatorade because I was really thirsty. It started to rain real hard and though I didn't have an umbrella with me, my t-shirt had a hood so I thought, since the house is only a few minutes away from the store I'd just walk in the rain.

I started walking, and I had my earphones plugged in. I noticed a few cars passing by. I could feel the wind on my face and the water trickling down the tip of my nose. I felt a few splashes of water on my cheeks. There was no one around except me.

The song "So Close" from the movie Enchanted started to play. I felt sad and alone.

There I was walking in the rain, a sob song playing on my phone. Suddenly, the rain stopped. Not a drop fell from the pitch black sky.

Ayun, nawala tuloy yung moment ko hehe.

Bwisit, feel na feel ko pamandin ang pagiging emo kanina hahaha.

Tinamaan ako dito ah!

"Alam niyo, kahit na ano pa ang sabihin niyong genre ang gusto niyong pasukin sa pagsusulat, babalik at babalik din ang tema ng mga sinusulat niyo sa mga taong mahal niyo. Makikita niyo siya sa bida ng kuwento niyo, sa kalaban, at sa mga extra. Siya ang langit at lupa ng nobela, sine, dialog, patalastas, or dula na isusulat niyo. Kung erotic story ang isusulat niyo, isusulat niyo lahat ng gusto mong gawin sa kama sa minamahal mo, kahit ideny mo pa, at sabihing my love is pure, deep inside, lahat tayo, in heat.

We all want to be serious writers, pero ang totoo, we want to write the greatest love story of our lives, and ang pinakamimithi natin is, na maging totoo sana ito.


Mga writers ang pinakamahirap maging dyowa or kaibigan kasi we expect a lot from the people in our lives. High-maintenance people tayo kasi, often times, the people around us don't behave like the people in our stories. Tandaan niyo, sa mga kuwento, lahat may explanation. Sa totoong buhay, hindi mo maintindihan kung bakit ganun kumilos ang boyfriend or girlfriend mo, bakit feeling mo insensitive ang bestfriend mo, or bakit nakakainis ang magulang mo.

Deep inside, we're nothing but immature brilliant children showing the world the contents of our diaries, hoping for someone to understand us."

-An excerpt from Bookie's post during the lecture of his Prof in UP.

Tinamaan ako dito, sapul na sapul. It made me realize that, yes, writers are the hardest to fall in love with because of their expectations. Writers create a world of happily ever afters, with romantic candle-lit dinners, white picket fences, victorian houses and shit. It's not easy for a writer to fall in love, and it's not easy to fall in love with a writer.  We are just too complicated, and wish of things in bubble dreams.

We all want to be the heroes in our stories, to save the maiden and live happily in a land far far away. But some stories end with the hero losing everything, having nothing left to himself. How about you? How does your story end?

Buhay ng Mass Comm?

...ay nakaka-stress.

...ay nakaka-pagod.

...nakaka inis.

...nakakairita lalo na pag may supertiority complex ang mga kasama mo.

...nakakagulo sa body clock mo dahil wala kang tulog.

...matututunan mong pumasok na mukhang fresh kahit 2 days nang hindi naliligo dahil sa shooting.

...malalaman mo difference nang point and shoot na camera at DSLR.

...ubusan ng pera lalo na pag na-reject magazine, story board, advertisement, or newspaper layout mo.

...puyatan ng ilang weeks para sa pag-gawa ng indie film.

...pagod at hirap mag conceptualize para sa Music Video mo.

...Effort maghanap ng Mass Media related na topic para sa thesis mo.

...Effort mong tanggapin panlalait ng Prof mo sa products mo na idedefense sa Advertising Class.

...Effort mo na i-check every spelling, structure, subject verb agreement shit ng mga article mo.

...Effort mong pakisamahan ang mga taong nagmamagaling when in fact their work is mediocre at best.

...Ang buhay ng isang Mass Comm student/graduate ay fast paced, always on the go, laging busy.

...Ang buhay ng isang Mass Comm ay magulo...

...pero nakakamiss din pala...=(

Love...

It means trusting yourself with someone who has seen you at your worst and loves you anyway.

It means teasing each other and laughing at inside jokes nobody but only the two of you understand.

It means coming home from a tiring day at work and feeling better when you see the person smile.

It means feeling safe enough to talk about anything and having the patience to work out disagreements.

It means waking up and singing in the shower because you are thinking of that special person.

It means counting on someone who sympathizes when you had a bad day.

...worries about you when you are gone for too long.

...listens to you talk even if the topic is uninteresting.

...stares at you while you sleep making sure you're sleeping soundly.

...And always welcomes you with open arms no matter what.

PS: Sabi ni Mariah mag-blog daw ako tungkol sa love kasi wala akong maisip i-blog eh. Mamaya may mag-react nanaman.

Mga Maria ng buhay ko...

Eto ang mga Maria ng buhay ko. Dahil sa kanila, nagkakaroon ng sigla at kulay ang aking buhay at blog. They are the friends others would kill to have and I am lucky na parte sila ng buhay ko. Aminado ako that I am not the nicest person in the world, but I am blessed to have known them because no matter how annoying and insane I am, they still put up with my shenanigans.

 Jackie.

My bestfriend, my soulmate. I have blogged about her a lot of times. I love her and I am so proud of her. Walang boring moment sa kanya, kahit na sa tawa or dramahan, she's always been there. She's seen me at my best, at my worst, and at my lowest. She's also very supportive of my decisions. Ganito nga nya ako i-motivate eh:

Me: Bes I wanna lose weight.
Jacky: Hay naku bes ganito lang yan. Naalala mo yung t-shirt sa SM na gusto mong bilhin pero hindi kasya sayo? Every time na kakain ka, yun ang isipin mo. Mag-focus ka sa tshirt na yun at alalahanin mo na anytime pwedeng mabili yun or ma-out-of-stock. Bawat subo mo ng pagkain, isipin mo ang t-shirt na yun na naghihintay sayo. Kaya dapat talaga na magpapayat ka.
Me: You're right.
Jacky: Tara kain tayo ice cream libre kita.
Me: Leche!

Lyve.

Probably the most blogged person here. She is my pseudo-wife or whatever the hell that shit means. Ang pinaka-selfless na tao na kilala ko pagdating sa akin and I have never given her enough credit for that.  Kahit na minsan ayaw nya, iniintindi nalang nya ako. She hates me and loves and hates that fact. She is one of the few people who I openly admit na mas matalino sa akin and mas magaling. I will never forget nung naaksidente ako at pinabili ko sya ng fried chicken sa Andoks at isang litro ng mountain dew sa 7/11 at dinala nya sa bahay. Sya nurse ko nun eh. We've kissed a dozen times, and para sa amin walang malisya yun. Oh and by the way she's really scared of my mom. Ewan ko ba kung bakit eh magkakilala naman sila.

Anna Mae.

Ang unang ikinasal sa aming lahat. Mae is the person na akala ko hindi ko makakasundo kasi iba circle of friends namin. Isang araw, nag videoke kaming lahat sa quantum kasama si Mae tapos ayun biglang magkakasama na kami lagi. O diba? What an awe-inspiring story of how two people became friends. Aside from Lyve, Mae was one of the those na sumalo sa akin nung tinalikuran ako ng lahat ng mga kaibigan ko dahil mga pakshet sila at alam kong walang pupuntahan mga buhay nila (bitter?). She welcomed me with open arms and made me realize that I deserve better people in my life. I will be forever grateful for that.

Ayan tapos na ang Baguio. Manila naman ngayon.

Bongga.

Ang unang naging ka-close ko sa office. Nasa RCBC pa kami nun. Senior palang sya nun at talagang sa kanya ako tumabi kahit na medyo natatakot ako kasi feeling ko nun pag may tinanong ako sa kanya eh baka bigla akong bigwasan. Bongga is super nice and kasundo ko sa lahat ng bagay. Of all the conversations I've had with Bongga, there is one I will never forget. And it goes something like this:

Me: You were from PeopleSupport diba?
Bongga: Yeah.
Me: Ako din! 2008. Ano account mo?
Bongga: Travel. Ikaw?
Me: Financial. Kilala mo si Ryan Buquir?
Bongga: Who doesn't know Ryan Buquir?!

And as they say, the rest is history.

Libby.

Si Sigma Liberty. Ang never kong inexpect na magiging ka-close ko. Batch mate ko siya sa training eh sobrang tahimik nya nun. As in hindi nagsasalita. Pag kausap mo tinititigan ka lang. Tapos nung nasa makati office pa kami, tumatabi sya sa akin nung nag-cacalls na kami tapos lagi kong pinagtritripan yung buhok nya kasi mas dry pa sa papel. Tapos nung ma-promote kaming apat sa Poker, aba, unang araw ng training naka-rebond at naka-sleveless ang puta. Parang hindi si Libby ang pumasok nun. Pero natuwa ako sa transformation nya, ibang iba aura ni Libby ngayon, parang araw-araw nadidiligan inspired. Alam nya mga drama ng buhay ko and I'm happy she's always there to lend a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on.

And last but not the least...*drum roll*...

Mariah.

Ito ang madalas kong banggitin at madalas na nagcocomment sa blog ko na si Mariah at ang kanyang mahihiwagang salbabida. Ang taong walang preno magsalita gaya ko. I still remember the first time we met, nakaupo sya sa lobby ng office kasi first day nya nun. Eh ako naman, kinausap ko sya bigla nakipagkwentuhan ako kasi naman 1 hour pa bago mag-start shift ko. Nagulat sya kasi, ok daw ako, friendly daw. Ako? Friendly? Oh c'mon. Pero ito ang aking bagong singing partner, sabi nya ako lang daw nakakaabot sa taas ng boses nya. Tenkyu naman. Super kulit tong babaeng to gaya ko kaya laging laughtrip.  Ito ang isang bagay tungkol kay Mariah, mahal na mahal nya si...*bleep* oops bawal banggitin ang pangalan kasi alam ng taong yun ang blog ko. Pero I have to hand it to Mariah, pagdating sa tawa at luha nandyan sya para sa akin. At nagulat ang mga friends namin kasi kaya kong buhatin si Mariah. Narinig ko narin boses nito sa phone pag may call sya. Pang pinay.com with webcam assist. Tignan nyo naman picture nya diba? Pang front-page ng Bulgar. Hehehe

Sila ang mga nagpapasaya sa akin at nagbibigay kulay sa aking mundo. Oh God I love my friends.

Worth the wait...

I really love the message of this song. The video/slideshow looks like crap so wag nyo nang tignan, pakinggan nyo nalang. I dont even know how I found this song and I'm not a KC fan pero nagustuhan ko talaga to.

I hope YOU like it...



Lyrics:

You ask how I've been

Coz you don't wanna

Miss out

On Anything

We hang up the phone

I wonder when

I'll be

With you again

In distance

In silence

You're closer to me

But then,

I guess

Tomorrow with you

Is uncertain

A long breath

Of nothing.

*But where do you want to

Run off to

I'll be with you running

How high do you want to

Fly up to

I'll be with you soaring

What do you want to say?

Should we go on this way,

Hiding

&

Hiding

&

Hiding...

Well, when I look at you

I know that it's worth

The wait.

A small world like ours today

Could never stop itself

From hoping

For love to taste freedom

For lovers to hold on

To something

When you grab my attention

I know you are searching

You're searching...

Cos when I'm not looking

You hold out your hand

And you pull me in,

Again.

*But where do you want to

Run off to

I'll be with you running

How high do you want to

Fly up to

I'll be with you soaring

What do you want to say?

Should we go on this way,

Hiding

&

Hiding

&

Hiding...

Well, when I look at you

I know that it's worth

The wait.

PS: Kids pagbigayan nyo na ako, minsan minsan lang to. ^_^

This is for you...

How I wish I could make your pain go away...

How I wish I can show you the world from my point of view...

How I wish that I could be the guy who makes you smile...

The guy who wont make you cry...

The guy you could come home to and make you feel better after a tiring day...

And give you chocolates and shit when you're upset...

I wish I was the guy who you could be proud of...

Who serves you breakfast in bed...

Who's the last one you see before sleeping...

and the first one you see when you wake up...

I won't promise you the sun and moon, but i'd gladly get a tattoo like that for you...

I wont promise things I cannot do...

Because I don't wanna disappoint you...

I wont be someone else just to impress you...

because I want you to love me for who I am...

Thinking of you makes me smile like a mad man...

Hearing your voice is like listening to the sound of a thousand angels sing...

I wanna be the perfect guy...

But I know I can't be...

I wanna be your superman...

But I dont have superhuman strength...

I wanna be your Alladin...

But I dont have a flyin carpet or a genie...

I wanna be all of that for you even if it's impossible...

But I'll be there at the end of the day to make corny jokes just to make you laugh...

To tuck you into bed before you sleep...

To go through every grocery store just to buy something you like...

To learn how to cook the food that you want to eat...

To work hard so I can give you the happily ever after you deserve...

You don't have to prioritize me, just love me back...

You don't have to take care of me, because I wanna take care of you...

You don't have to swallow your pride for me, because I'll forget my stupid pride just for you...

I can't promise you the world, but I can promise to make you happy everyday...

Until I breathe my last breath...

- Your Rocket

What say you?

I just got out of the gym and I was on my way to the Sky Garden at SM to smoke when my phone beeped. I thought it was text message pero e-mail pala. I opened my mailbox and saw that the subject was "I hate myself". Nagtaka tuloy ako so binasa ko yung e-mail. Nagulat ako! Nobela!

Adam, 

I have this small problem. Well I don't really consider it small though. It has been bothering me for days now. You see, there's this guy. Well I just got to know him just a week ago. We exchanged mobile numbers and after that, we've been constantly communicating through text messages and calls. From the first time I talked with him, I felt something nice. He is a very interesting person. I told myself that I would want to know more about him. He sends me sweet messages. He gives me pet names which I found really cute and adorable. It said so much about his personality. Our first meeting wasn't really that special. I asked him if he could accompany me in watching Inception. He said yes. I suggested Greenbelt since I haven't tried yet their cinemas there. So that day came. We agreed to meet halfway. Right after class, I went straight to Gateway then after some twenty minutes, he arrived. I was easily swayed by his small stature. Although that didn't really mattered to me. I was more captured by his ability to communicate with me well. I must say it's rare that I get to meet guys who have brains. Our meet-up was great. I really had fun. It was a day of firsts for me. It was my first time to take the LRT alone. It was my first time to take the bus. It was my first time to walk along the streets of Makati. He thought of me as a "lost puppy" because I looked so clueless. 

When I got home, I called him. I told him that I had a great time. I opened the idea about him spending a night over at my place. He said he likes the idea. That day came, I fetched him over the train station then we took the trike together going back to my condo. I fell even more when he instantaneously cooked dinner for me upon realizing that I haven't eaten yet. He's a great cook. He used to own a restaurant before. For the first time, I never felt any lust for him. I mean sex didn't came into my mind. Its not that I didn't want to nor was he not worth doing it with but I was just smitten by his great personality. I couldn't begin to describe what I was feeling then. I tried to deny that I was liking him because it was just too soon. But the more I tried denying it, the more it just becomes apparent that I'm starting to miss him, that I want to talk to him everyday, that before I go to sleep it's his voice that I would want to hear, that I can't calm myself every time at some times. Here's where my problem begins. Our first meeting, I don't even consider that a date. His sleepover at my place is just like just time spent together. We didn't even got the chance to know more about each other. I get restless every time I don't get to talk to him. I'm not sure what he wants us to be or what are his intentions. The thought of this uncertainty is enough to drive me insane. I've seen myself go crazy over a guy and I don't want that to happen anymore. I was thinking of confronting him but I'm scared I might give him the impression that I'm rushing things. He's a busy person, he's got work all throughout the week. The last thing I would want to do is to demand time from him. I really don't know what to do Adam. I think he's the one. I can only think so much. 

-Atenista

**********************************

Atenista,

Hmmm... I really don't know how to respond to this. I dont even know kung may credibility ako na sumagot sa ganito. Let me take a shot in the dark okay? First of all, you only met him last week? And now you feel this way? 

Do you feel any chemistry between the two of you? I assume that you do kasi mukha namang masaya ka sa kanya. But let me remind you, it's only been a week. Confronting him may not be the best decision yet because you two barely know each other. Pag ginawa mo yun, only two things can happen. Either magustuhan mo ang sagot and you two have a fairy tale ending ooorrrr magulat sya at bigla syang dumistansya mula sayo. Are you willing to take the risk? 

You can't say that it's love you feel kasi ilang araw palang kayo magkakilala. It's probably infatuation, kasi natutuwa ka sa tao na to who fits your description of the ideal man. If you call and text him everyday, that's probably the reason why you miss him now when you don't get to talk to him because he already became part of your daily routine. Wag mo nga lang masyadong kulitin because as you said, he's always busy. 

A text every now and then to remind him you miss him is ok but to call him every minute, kahit sino maiirita. You two slept in the same bed pero walang nangyari? Weh? di nga? Pero that's good, it shows na may delikadesa ka at may control sya. This is what I learned from giving countless and unsolicited advice to all of my friends over the years, kahit anong sabihin ko may sense man o wala, when it's your heart that's listening and talking, it blocks everything else that it doesn't wanna hear. WALANG AAPILA! Wag kayong plastic!

So let me just tell you to take it slowly muna. Go on more dates, get to know him more kasi mahirap yung ineexpect mo na he's the one tapos hindi pala. Ikaw ang masasaktan kasi ikaw ang umasa. Also, ask yourself, do you think he feels the same way towards you? Give him subtle signs na you're attracted to him and if he responds well, then good. They say that great relationships start from being friends, and I would say the same to you. 

I dont know if this makes any sense pero eto lang kasi ang maipapayo ko ngayon. Sensya na po.

+Adam+

PS. Bakit sa dinami dami ng tao eh ako ang tinanong mo? 

Dahil praning ako...

Isang eksena sa office kanina.

I was seated at my workstation minding my own business updating my blog dahil sa sobrang avail time.

Lumingon ako at nakita ko ang supervisor ko papunta sa direction namin. Nung una di ko pinansin. Bigla kong na-realize na papunta sya kung san ako nakaupo. He had a blank expression on his face. Bigla akong pinagpawisan ng malamig.

Every step he took made my heart beat fast and I tried to remember the stuff I've been doing that day.

Papalapit na sya.

Ayan na.

He stopped right in front of me. Still with that look on his face.

"Oh shit", I thought.

He suddenly smiled and said, "Thanks for the help with the pictures earlier".

"Uhhm...uhh...okay...uhhm...anytime...", I said with this hesitant smile on my face. He was referring pala to the thing that he asked me to do.

Bigla syang tumalikod. Tapos na pala shift nya. I was there stunned, and when I saw the door close behind him, huminga ako ng malalim sabay sabi ng malakas,

"woohoo! Akala ko may award nanaman ako! Ayoko na!"

Nagtawanan ang mga team mate ko. Sabi ni Libby, lagi daw akong kinakabahan pag lumalapit ang kahit sino sa kanila.

"Naman!", sabi ko, "Lalo na pag may dalang papel yang mga yan, hindi na ako makahinga".

Pano ba naman kasi na-trauma na ata ako dahil dati pag kakausapin ako ng mga manager or supervisor eh dahil sa may ginawa nanaman ako. Alam nyo naman na ang inyong humble blogger eh medyo pasaway.

So far wala pa naman akong ginagawang mali ulit and I plan to keep it that way. Kinakakabahan lang ako lagi pag bigla nila akong tatawagin. And to think na sinasabi ko kay DT na praning sya. Eh mas praning pa pala ako sa kanya.

Haaay buhay nga naman.