Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Peace Of Mind


Ok, if you'll notice, my previous posts were not so good. Here's the thing, for some time now there are things that have been bugging me. As in naiirita ako. I mentioned before that Christmas brings the worst out in me and nagkataon lang na nagsabay sabay lahat ng 'to.

It's not work related naman. Ok naman ako sa work. In fairness, hindi na ako napapagalitan dahil sa mga late ko dahil maaga na akong pumapasok ngayon. Ok naman performance ko. Masaya naman dahil dalawang tulog nalang makukuha ko na bonus at sweldo ko.

It's mostly personal stuff. The thing is I cannot mention it here. Unang una ang haba ng kwento baka mawalan na kayo ng ganang basahin blog ko pag nagkwento ako. Second, there are some details and names that I have to mention pag nag kwento ako. So wag nalang.

They say that writing is therapeutic, kaya nga sinimulan ko tong blog na to. It's my drug. Writing calms me down and makes me think rationally. Kaya ito ang ginagawa kong outlet para sa lahat ng hinanakit ko sa buhay. Pag nagkwento kasi ako sa mga friends ko, kahit sawa na sila, they still listen. Kapag nagsawa kayo sa mga kwento ko, you can always skip a few paragraphs down.

Nakakainis lang kasi Im trying my best to divert my attention, kahit anong pwedeng gawing distraction ginawa ko na. Problem is, the moment I stop, I think about those things again and it starts to rattle me. Kairita diba?

I just need peace of mind. I'm not asking for much. I know there are others out there who have far greater problems than I do and I sympathize with them. But these are my issues and no matter how small or silly they are, they're enough to make me uneasy.

San ba kasi nakakabili ng punyetang peace of mind na yan at bibili ako by the box. Yung tipong buy 10 take 1 at may sukli pa ako.

Haaaay....

3 comments:

KUMAGCOW said...

Adam, sa divisoria ata meron jowk!

Try mo na lang to enjoy whatever you have right now, I know you hate it when everyone's not around but you know how much you are loved... doesn't that count? Be that as it may you have to still count your blessings no matter how wretched your life is right now... so take it easy and celebrate with some of your other friends, that's what they are there for.. =) cheer up ha!

RJ said...

pa LBC ko na lang yung 1 box of peace of mind ha... Antayin mo! :) Don't worry! Be happy... Parang Jollibee lang ano? LOL :) Hahaha

Anonymous said...

When everything's going wrong and it feels like you've hit rock bottom, then there's no where else to go but up. Things are never hopeless. Smile and enjoy life. You are a wonderful person.